i was at my aa home group this morning. near the end of the speaker's message, he said something about his therapist, dave - that he had died recently. i was shocked! dave is one of the best friends i have ever had. we got sober together starting 20 years ago (he got there about 6 months before me) and we played softball together for 2 years in the mid 90's. he was a total class act and a dear friend. we did not, however, socialize together very often. our face to face friendship was almost exclusively at meetings or at trainings when we worked for the same rehab center.
anyway, dave had had chronic back problems for years - since the last year we played ball together. he was off work on sick leave when he began developing headaches and blurry vision. he went to the doctor and got some tests. he was diagnosed with cancer and died within three weeks - somewhere around january 12. i was away that weekend in wilkes barre where my father is recuperating from open heart surgery so i did not hear it announced at any meetings.
when the speaker talked about it i just sat stiff as a board and then began shaking, then crying, gently. i am still stunned. i hadn't seen dave since some time in june or july and he was doing great. his son had just turned 6 and was playing baseball and dave was so proud. (he and his wife had tried to have kids for years and finally were blessed 6 years ago with a son - luke. dave was 52. kathy is about 45.)
well, i have been working on some experimental and fairly dark pieces for a set that had no direction. i sat down this afternoon and polished a couple of the pieces and finished two wip's - including one alternate version. the spectre looms suddenly
should be available for free download at www.rigelorionis.com
late next week. it is a jim brenholts release and is dedicated to my good friend dave k - also a lover of ambient space music. (he was very twisted - he liked most of my stuff, too.)
i am extremely saddened by this turn of events. i thank all of you for your support.